“Yet more and more this truth doth shine
From failure and from loss,
The will that runs transverse to Thine
Doth thereby make its cross:
Thine upright will
Cuts straight and still
Through pride and dream and dross.”
This is something I’d like to call “The Sword of His Will”. Which is, to present yourself before the Lord in full surrender and allow Him to tear away from your heart whatever you hold within you that crosses with Himself. It is a painful undertaking, but a worth while one! It bleeds and stings like nothing else, but the result is a sweet savor. It is to be committed all the way. To put place yourself completely in His care. To trust Him with everything. And nothing is more sweet, more precious, or dear to Him. Nothing can compare to the bonding it forms between me and my Saviour. And nothing is worth holding onto that separates that closeness. I hope this is a blessing, dear reader, and that you wouldn’t hesitate to open your heart completely to the one who first opened His heart to you.
I lay myself down on the cold stone
I asked Him to place me here.
But as a once silent prayer becomes my reality,
All I can sense is my own gripping fear.
My heart within me pounding
Like a heavy drum, it beats;
With every part of me shaking in terror,
My Great Physician meets.
“My child, it is time to cut through this dross
So to replace it with the best;
Someday you will yet come to understand the reason,
But for now, be still and rest.”
He knows just where to place the knife,
Cutting deep, the right incision He makes.
Clear through my dearest desires and dreams,
My heart, He deliberately breaks.
The pain within me, overwhelming
How it aches and stings and bleeds!
But still one thought returning,
“Lovest Thou me, more than these?”
How the sorrows of loss compassed me!
My eyes, heavy laden with tears;
Weary and wounded, I cry out to Him-
Only silence; Yet, I could sense His presence near.
Still He continued to tear me
All earthly pleasures severed and crushed;
The hopes once hidden away in my heart,
Like blood from my veins, now rushed.
Such silence disquieted my soul
But His touch was still gentle and sweet.
For no one else knows me like He does,
All my deepest needs, He alone can entreat.
His smile towards me was reassuring
Though His face with anguish seemed worn.
I felt secure in His strong grasp; But still wondered,
Why, with such heaviness of tears, He did mourn?
For behold, He too was standing there bleeding!
All my pain and grief to bear;
And it was then, I knew that He loved me
What great compassion! My death to share!
Lord Jesus, You gave all Your life blood,
“The Man of Sorrows”, became for me;
And so through Your grace and by Thy power,
I’ll lie here and bleed for Thee.
Still, He won’t leave His helpless victim,
Lying shattered and lifeless and wasted to be;
But He comes in quite different apparel
Jehovah-Rapha- “I am the LORD that healeth thee.”
Such peace floods my soul!
He’s a healing balm to my open wounds;
What joy overflows me; He mends the broken heart again!
Whatever the losses I feared, my thanksgiving now consumes.
It is good that He did afflict me
For He only is able to fully use;
Those things which are willing to be sacrificed,
And a heart that is broken and bruised.
-Lynea Bickish January 2014-